seems to be some kind of hurt inside you. Are you jealous that your
old 'loser' boyfriend now has a child ? Does he now have something
that you want for yourself ?
that you do not want him back and yet you still compare him with
other guys you meet. What was it about him that attracted you to
him ? there seems to be some characteristic in him that you like
or need. A characteristic you try to find in other guys.
for yourself what it is you want for your life. Stop comparing him
with your new guys, you are not giving them a fair chance. Whatever
characteristic your old boyfriend had, cherish it. Take each guy
for what they are and what they can offer.